Why are we disgruntled and jaded?

For the sake of starting some serious discussion here.. I'm a bit drunk and decided to post this. I really ask myself deep down why I am disgruntled and jaded about armageddon. The websters definition of disgruntled is. -- Angry or Dissatisfied. I certainly am angry at past staff and past things that have happened but am I dissatisfied with Arm right now? Not at all. The game is still good. I think the main problem for me anyway is this: I know too much. I been there and done that. I been burned. I been imm-slayed more times than I can count. I've tried to come back but it's been met with nothing but scorn and my reputation is so far beyond reparations why even try? It's a vicious cycle, and in the end I think it comes down to who is more mature. I could come clean right now and post my current account and everything and get it reported and all that.. but what does it really accomplish? Will it change anything, I highly doubt it.

I think everyone comes to a point where they just don't care anymore. Once you reach that point you're no longer a 'reasonable' person. You're unreasonable, and I reached that point a long time ago. I am unreasonable. I fully understand and accept that fact when it comes to Arm I am unreasonable. I refuse to reason with the current staff because I have no reason to believe that anything has changed. Especially hearing all the stories coming from these new forums. I ask then what is the solution? There probably isn't one. There will constantly be a struggle between jaded players and the corrupt staff. Yes I say corrupt staff because I feel that the staff inherently are corrupt. They are privy to every secret the mud has to offer, they are also given the most powerful and influential roles in the game. This is the worst blight upon Arm; the fact that almost every high ranking character in the game can be attributed to either staff or players that were being brought onto staff? I append the question mark because I truly don't know. I know that thru the channels of gossip that Arm has more trash and dirt than most muds that are transparent. The problem is the RPI aspect. The stringent IC/OOC rules and the inability for the staff to monitor private communications between players which obviously takes place on a daily.

I guess what I am trying to say is I really deep down want to return to the mud legit but how can one return to something that you feel almost a hatred for.. at least for the staff in general. If I reminisce about the old days I have a lot of regrets but there were a lot of good times as well. I think that a lot of the troubles and problems I caused ICly could have been easily fixed if the staff tried to reach me instead of just banning me over and over again.

The ban-hammer does not work.

In my experience you cannot teach people with negative reinforcement, you really need to reach them at the core in order to get anywhere.

TL;DR (too long-didn't read): I drank too much and I wanted to vent some of my thoughts on Arm that I am currently having. Also I want this board to succeed so I am starting more discussion!

Join as a what? That made no sense.

Ohhh. Makes sense now.

Nah my therapy right now is Firefall, college, and my new job.