How ArmageddonMUD could redeem itself

I just don't see the point in roleplaying one life after another in which there's no chance to create, build, or (at this point) discover something new. It's like being in a cage with the same handful of worn toys.

What basically finished me off is when Talia spent more effort arguing in the AoD forum about how big a deal it was to change a barracks in a wagon to be a save room than it would have taken to make the actual change. We'd asked for this months previously (so that we wouldn't have to idiotically keep tramping through a templar's stateroom to get at basic supplies, something that makes no sense from a roleplaying point of view) and she'd even agreed (then) that it would be a good idea. And having been on staff a very long time ago and having built two wagons back then, I know how little effort it requires to make such a change. Even if she couldn't be arsed to do it herself, she could have delegated one of her Storytellers to do it. But no, not only was she inert, she was spouting crap about why it couldn't be done. Just summed up the whole staff attitude to me. Hopeless.

To redeem Arm for me, they'd have to sweep the whole existing staff culture away and appoint people who want to actually do things. I'm not sure there are any left in the player base who are like that anymore though.

And, the conversation on the GDB has taken a productive turn. I am completely satisfied with Adhira's post on the matter and feel obligated to compliment her maturity and understanding. I am perhaps wishfully thinking that the more recent posts will be taken very seriously, but perhaps it's actually being considered.

Take your petty grudge and shove it right up your butt. It's obvious you're only interested in being a hater for the sake of it. You haven't taken in the main context of the GDB thread and considered the long-term effects, nor the fact that I am not alone in these sort of sentiments, and people have arrived at their own current perspectives independently of my own experience, without any communication between parties. You can judge all you want, but it's not really productive. Yes, I deleted those posts, mostly because some were unproductive rage-fits that did nothing for the conversation, and some because they revealed plot info. I did stop posting after that for a while, and had a discussion with staff about it. I was banned for two months, I was allowed to appeal it, I did after I cooled off.

You see, I did admit, in that case, that I was wrong in my perspective, that I'm human and that I make mistakes too. What you CAN'T see because I'm guessing you must either be a newer player or one of the chosen few, is that I have been getting this sort of lame treatment for quite some time. Some of the more recent ones were clearly my fault, this I will admit, but this sort of hostility does not build up by just having a suspiciously raw deal get rammed up your arse once, it's YEARS in the making, of things that go unmentioned in public discussion, of things I haven't really discussed, that set the tone for future staff and player interactions. As is evidenced by the presence of these boards and alluded to in the recently active thread on the GDB, I am not the only one who has experienced this, seen staff favoritism in action, been on the wrong end of it, and experienced some fuck-all bullshit as a result. You can look back over the recountings of others of their own experiences, and witness the pattern.

Then there are the ones who do not speak publicly of the questionable events they've experienced. There are many of these, they speak with a small collection of friends, share the details they can't bring to staff without getting shut down on the matter. You must not have any experience with these, as if you did, you could clearly see how someone could easily come to some, from your perspective, batshit nuts conclusions from certain observable patterns. I don't really give a fuck what you think anymore, but consider the holes in your argument, your obvious bias, your rather blatant agenda not even related to the subject at hand, and how you allow it to color your viewpoints and manner of expression... but as you are seemingly one of those unwilling and/or unable to admit possible ignorance or wrongdoing, I do not expect much introspection from you.

Yeah, that's a direct quote from Topkekm8s. I thought the easiest way to deflect that was to use it as a quote. For the most part, it's worked. Most of it's made up however. For example, I don't always play elves, I play humans and breeds as well. For every player I've pissed off somehow, such as yourself, Metekillot, EvilCabbage, etc., who comes here with the singular purpose of insulting me and trying to get a rise out of me, I get four more who send me kudos for my characters... so, I'm pretty confident you're just talking out your butt. You say I tried to use OOC methods to get out of consequences for my possibly ONE character you played with, when this is far from the case. If I had been doing such, I would not have thrust my PC into hazerdous situations where complications could arise, be it climbing rooftops on orders, hunting snakes with the militia on off-days, doing shady business transactions in taints and weaponry with the militia right outside my door as they picked in, letting the unnamed customer out the back, diving out the back so they had to interrogate me on the rooftops and not amidst my huge stash of contraband, so as to stall them from discovering an assosciate, got drug into an interrogation over a tall murderer in an aba (instead of saying, oop, I got rl stuff to do, later! quit ooc), walked into private rooms for meetings with allies I oocly KNEW weren't really allies and would fuck me over at the drop of a hat, put my PC in vulnerable positions with them, as well as who I am assuming to be your PC, who I will not mention the details of...

Yeah, I was always dodging consequences by OOC methods, huh. Seems like even if I do something dangerous for my PC, I guess, because the consequence didn't suit YOUR narrative, you assumed I somehow "cheated". Bravo, pat yourself on the back for making a bunch of shit up. All I know is my internet was fucking shitty and sometimes it was best to quit out a while until it got better. It was the night of that last contract, and that was the ONLY time I considered using a valid justified OOC reason to avoid it, but I considered, well, this is something my PC would not miss, despite how I think it might go down, so I may as well log in and hope my internet chooses not to shit all over me. I got banned not for your complaints, those were not mentioned in my banning, but for my posting here in a shit-fit I admitted to being wrong for doing. It was implied I should remove my posts, something you find an act of cowardice, but that I find was correct given the circumstances. You are simply determined to see events through a certain list and not consider other possible explanations.

So, how was I avoiding potential consequences? Was it because I er, got a side mission from the Sarge with permission to work on that exclusively and therefor wasn't in the sparring ring for ye olde Byn easy murder ritual all the time? Is it because my playtimes weren't always consistent so maybe you missed some opportunities? Was it because my PC quit for a short while in order to work on her crafting expertise in order to be not quite so useless to the unit and to try to rid herself of a deep funk that had come over her?.. I mean, that seems all IC to me. I really do not get where you are digging this stuff up.

EDIT: I would like to add that by trying to derail a thread meant to be constructive, with the exclusive purpose of shitting on me, specifically, will earn you more quizical looks than brownie points or high-fives. Staff does read this board too, no matter what they say, and it really does not look very mature or productive on your part to continue this sort of bullshit, quite the opposite. So I'd like to advize you to get back to the topic at hand, or just be quiet, as it's in your best interests.

You're right, Lamb.  Grumble is actually a psychotic quatragenarian weirdo whom lives off (of) the government doll and does little but play armageddon.  Since he's moved in with us, he's admitted his problems, started writing a book and has begun shopping around for a house.

What's your excuse?

Not the -most-, but edging on it.

newp. try that again. the definite implication is that the person described in the first sentence 'is' the most pathetic. it's got not shit to do with implying that you are. you're my grumble. you might be an asshole, but you're my asshole friend. only one on the boards but raptor dan who has the number to my phone.