Post by nyrlicious on Oct 16, 2013 15:52:26 GMT -5
Delerak, I've always sort of seen you as a double edged sword for the game. On the one hand, you represent an ideal contrast to the staff, who have had a history of abuse (and who respond with apathy, or worse, when it's been pointed out). There have been many occasions, both when I was on staff and as a player, where I watched you and quietly cheered you on, hoping you'd succeed in whatever mischief you were up to at the time. The system, like any system, even honest ones, needs those people who still stand up against it, question it, and try to subvert it. That's the half of you which I respect and admire.
Sadly, your other half is fueled by immaturity and ignorance. You pepper your strongly worded opinions with vulgarity and anger and base what you have to say, very often, on a lack of information, rather than on information. You should avoid badmouthing those aspects of the game which you are unfamiliar with (such as the castle discussion above), because a) it worsens your case and b) it makes me wonder if anything you're saying here is true. Try putting some thought and carefully worded criticism into your posts and you'll have a powerful, believable argument for a change. Until then, you just come across as the same teenage rebel I knew you to be when you first started playing.
I don't expect this to matter to you, but I'll say it anyway. The one thing I always wanted to see from you, back at a time when I played regularly and cared immensely for the game, was for you to take things even a little seriously. Not for the sake of the staff watching down upon you, if anything in spite of them. I mean for yourself. I wanted to see you immerse yourself in a character, to treasure that character like he was an actual, living human (or non-human) being. I wanted to see you be a part of the game world instead of yet another indie trouble maker who can't be a part of anything other than his own selfish, very short-lived goals. Join a clan, or don't join a clan but be part of a cause, and show you have the maturity and dedication to stick with the role longer than a week, when boredom strikes and you search for cheap, quick, suicidal entertainment. You learned a lot about the mechanics of the game in your earlier days through this style of play and it's served you well enough to make you very knowledgeable from a code-based standpoint. Now use that knowledge to improve the game world itself by actively taking a part of it. It has nothing to do with the staff, many of whom are childish and incapable of self-criticism and of growth. Do it for yourself and for the game. You have an opportunity to offer something to the rest of us, but until you do that you haven't gone anywhere from the original Delerak I knew many, many moons ago.