Where is everyone?

If we keep upping the stakes....

Beautiful green-eyed gf with triple d's and a heart of gold, work, more work, my art, saying im going read more then never doing it, trying to swim back up from the darkest depths of cosmic existential analysis if only for a moment to catch my breath. The occasional masturbation sesh.

I check back now and then, but I can't say I feel like creating a character and playing the game.

The only thing I've noticed is that:

Changes that nobody asked for, happened: Magicker sub-guild

Changes that people seemed to want, didn't: Guild Changes.

Well I suppose the look to hemote thing is something I guess, but I haven't seen much to make me interested in actually playing the game again. I think the gith thing they were doing died out? Not sure. I suppose I ultimately lost interest, and the people who used to play who kept me inform and no longer play either. There is little to hook me back into this game *shrug*

I've just given up. The grind to become semi-relevant skill-wise, and all the arrangements and crosstalk necessary to make connections, only to die for the nth time because insert stupid, petty thing here, makes me throw up my hands and say, you know what? I might not can alter the course of Arm's self-destructive cycle, due to staff resistance, but I can do my own little part in encouraging new growth elsewhere, where I already approve of the direction.

I agree with Lyse, she's said I've played some seriously annoying characters, but wherever they are, there's definitely a scene going on. That's the thing, I'm willing to take that chance, walk that edge, and push people to interact and cooperate, even if I have to be antagonistic to do so, and end up public enemy number one in the process. I had a long lived merchant who was rumored to be a servant of the sorcerer stitching together foul things in the sewer, he wasn't, but that was amusing to find out, as well as the suspicion that he was a nilazi, and the nobility and Templarate gathering people to send to murder my poor, stuttering, squishy elf, all of which, obviously, I managed to avoid by the skin of my teeth. I was like, wtf? Really? Damn, Malrith's a fucking super-villain... which totally wasn't my aim, I just wanted to play a naive, happy-go-lucky and silly elf, but people thought killing his new-found friends was a good idea, time and again, and running him out of town, which, didn't sit well with him, and eventually he went mad with vengeful fury, ditched his pacifist upbringing, got ostracized from his vNPC tribe, and scared the bejezus out of everyone.

Know what's funny? My characters have interacted with yours several times over the years. And while I never fell for your characters' shit, it was always fun and interesting to interact with you. Know why? Because it was an actual interaction, an exchange. I got to see some of your characters and you got to see some of mine. Most people actually go out of their way to NOT interact with you now and it's so weird to me. They'd rather use their triggers and scripts and shit and just...I don't know what to call it....E-Z mode Mary Sue-it. I just know playing was sucking out all my energy. It literally made me not want to play.

Don't get me wrong, there are still some really great people playing. But I'd say a good 80% just make me want to tear my eyes out and log out and punch my monitor. I would actually come back just to play with certain people...I just can't, I know that feeling would come back in a day of play time. 


sirra and I had a nice little conversation in private about skill levels and what happens when you reach a certain skill level in the game. The average player kind of can't really challenge you anymore and Imm threats are just kind of ridiculous, so it's like you can't win. 

I feel like my favorite interactions with staff and storytellers have been so seamless or funny and I could tell we were just playing off each other. Nothing came out of it, but I was just sitting there thinking, "Wow, is this some new echo?" or just laughing so hysterically, I nearly pee'd myself. I...want...that in the game, but I want that for more people. I really just want people to enjoy themselves and just enjoy helping each other tell their story...whoever it is player or staff. I just feel like the level of respect that there are other human beings on the other end of that screen isn't there anymore. It's just kind of depressing to watch people pop in somewhere and log off because their buddy isn't there, log on to skill up and then log off (repeat several times a day) doing the bare minimum. It's just, not worth the effort.

Red Storm is safer, much safer. At least if you make enemies there you can hide out a RL day or two until surly mr. lantern-jaw gets et by a beetle. The rinth was a pretty nice place, until Nobody, then Wanderer and company, showed up. I prefer to RP in a manner that doesn't stifle interaction, and doesn't seek conflict without a good reason, because all conflict tends to end the same way. They say death creates plots, maybe it does, but it ends plots you have no idea about until you get a really intimate view of the situation, which most people just, do not give enough of a shit to get one, because you're just another notch on their murder-belt.